Well...DC was great. I liked it. I was only there for 5 days or something.

Responsibilities. Things we know we should do but then we don't?? why?? Feelings...I don't feel like watering the grass...I don't feel like going to work....I don't feel like being patient. That word feel just gets overused and abused and the connotation we give it when we use it....overused. So....how are you doing??

I am doing great!!
Steady increasing in a relationship. NO. A friendship. PHysical does cloud the mind. It should be the very last part of a relationship.

So...what now. Well growing up never hurts anyone. Growing up and letting ourselves be prepared is the best thing. Issues we will be facing, we need to the tools to face them peacefully. Joy. We can have joy anywhere.

Keeping feelings inside or being disciplined enough to keep inside what needs to be kept inside??? Object of affection or objection that leads to affection??

Love on purpose. Choice on purpose. Marriage to Jesus. A commitment.

I'm not giving over completely like I used to be.

Tonight. I am tired. Is there such a thing as too close?? too friendly?? More than friends and less than lovers...I remember reading that in a book once. This time I am not as tore up and bitter inside. I have not arrived but there has been change and growth.

What now. Lay the plans down on the surreal alter I deem real. Spiritually speaking into metaphors but in my mind these things are functioning reality. I gotta be a prepared woman. I gotta be a praying woman. I gotta be a determined woman, not giving up when I feel tired. Oh the injustice of such a thing when attempted failure comes running in and slaps like a hand to the face.

Combining two separate worlds. Two viewpoints. At what point do two become one?? Two can not walk together unless in agreement. So what's love really all about. It's not an illusion. Anger and quarrels are inevitable yeah?? So Lord grant me the mercy and grace to go through these things and keep the joy about you.

Youngness. Youth. Bottle it up.

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~~All things are permissable but not all things are beneficial~~