I am going to wads today to help my sister design a skirt. I am so excited about that. I told my boss I will not be here in the Fall. I can't always think about doing things for other people and being what they want me to be. I need to take a step back and do what God wants me to do. I need to let go and NOt Look Back.

I do not want to go against my God. I am feeling some very strong feelings. I am working up the courage to put myself out there possibly really for the first time seriously. I want to be utterly committed and faithful.

I seriously want to love someone. A man. That's what I really want. I want to travel and dance and love someone. I want a partner.

So I don't want to live in sin. I want to be with someone with the joy of my creator. There are set rules out there in the bible. People have so many guidelines but is it all culture specific?? I am not white. All I see on tv are white or black women of God...where are the Native women of God??? waiting for their turn. They are coming up.

I have to write my own love story and my own life story. Take steps of faith. Believe and love. Believe and Love. Laughing is great fun. Talking is great comfort. Listening is great appreciation. Asking is great caring. Silence is relaxation.

God will ever give us what we can't bear. No looking back. Only forward. A life of learning to think alike. A life of learning to become one. Of supporting eachother. The other spouse comes first.

My needs are just as important. It's not that I just fit into someone's schedule. We make the time to make it together.

Lord I hear what you're saying. I am coming to you.

Peace out.

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~~All things are permissable but not all things are beneficial~~