These days
I can't seem to please nobody
I get snapped at from someone I feel should care about me.

Responsibility. being able to live on our own. Being able to fly people down here and open up our house to them. I want to be able to do that. I will be living in a house soon....but there are many stipulations on that house. I am going to get judged even harsher now because if I don't do things like how the owner does them now....then I am just unreliable and dont know how to do anything. That's how I feel right now. I feel I am looked at as a little girl still...that I honestly don't know anything. I hate that feeling. I hate the feeling that I am not good enough or don't measure up...especially when it's my own family.

I can't stand that.

You know...valentine's day I was so mad. I had never gotten mad at seeing flowers and candy as I did this past valentine's day. I am not into guys who are trying to impress me. Not good. And I also got a big basket of candy from a girl. hmm. Interesting. The best gift was cookies from my mother. But still. There has been a lot on my mind. There is a lot of work to do as well but I find myself not getting up as enthusiastic about it as I think I should be.

I miss traveling so much. I feel like there is not much going on right now. I learned to sew. I just jumped on the maching and started to sew. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. watch out ya'll....here come some outfits.

anyways...I have to get back to work.

Before - next

~~All things are permissable but not all things are beneficial~~