2005-02-09 and it was 8:29 a.m. when I wrote this:
I am leaving to Canada today!! Yay. I am excited to be going on up to Puk once again.
Well this one guy gave me a valentine card with a piece of candy. I ate the candy all fast and was like "thanks". I think he really wanted a different reaction. He's really awesome. He has his own house, a good job, pays all his bills, is a lead singer of a drum group, is a grass dancer, is funny,.....but I can't seem to really feel ....hm....comfortable in being with him. He gave me a hug the other night...he asked me first. But I feel he wants things too fast, but will respect my decision that I don't want to. He is a man, I can see that. I just am not into him like I want to be....I am scared that I will end up walking away from him and also the physical part too.
Right now I enjoy just hangin out. I am going to go out with him when I get back from canada. I guess we will go to Tahoe. But..man...there is going to be no hugging or kissing or hand holding of any kind!! I hope he isn't expecting anything like that because I can't do that with him.
Geez. I have had a lot more work to do in the office too. I am waiting right now for my boss to get here to sign my timesheet.
I finally entered the women's all around contest at a pow wow. I went to a pow wow in California. It was fun. It was just a one day pow wow but I had to change three times. I felt funny dancing traditional for the first time at a pow wow and since I was a little girl. Well my jingle dress, leggings, and moccassins are all done. I am still working on the beadwork. This summer I am going to have some awesome outfits and what not.
Well I can honestly say I haven't been reading up on things I think I should be. I have been watching Joyce Meyer because she has had that guy on who wrote the book about Love....hm..what's it called?? oh..the 5 love languages or something. That book was definitely awesome and I kinda forgot about it. I think my mom has my copy and I would like to read through it again. Lots of good stuff in there.
Anyhow..one of my co-workers is going to have a baby!! How exciting. She is 24 I think. She will be a good mom. I am the only one in the office that knows though!! I can keep a secret!! yee.
The other day me and my buddy kenny went to Mi casa too....we ate like 4 bowls of chips....we were all hungry and what not. He's so crazy. He's also a person I consider to be a man. He takes care of what he needs too and is very smart. He's an intelligent one that one...yee. Crazy ndn from fallon anyway.
Well that is all for now. I need to go pick up something in the bookstore. I hope i can find a great deal. Man...I need to be home packing though.
