So geez. I had a long discussion with my boss and co-worker yesterday about relationships and all that. These two people are married. However...my boss is always like...michelle be beatin' em off with a stick...all races too.

Yeah so I have. And I found out that somebody who I like doesn't like me like that. But the thing is I kinda made myself start liking him based off of what people were perceiving. I liked it that we were just friends. Sucks. So anyways.

I was at a friends apartment last night and we always seem to end up talking about relationships and he asked me," So you like to keep yourself single so you can mack on other guys and not be committed, or what?". He actually asked me something along those lines. So I started to think that he thinks all I do is be a big flirt. But in all honesty that's not what I like. I haven't been approaching nobody lately , they have been coming up to me. So I believe I have my pick and I have a right to be or not be with someone I don't want to. I honestly don't have a fear of commitment if it's someone I really like and want to be with. If he treats me right and has the characteristics of things I value then I don't have a problem being someone's woman. I would rather have it that way so that I don't get hit on or asked for my number because I would have a protector and someone I am crazy about anyway. It would be easy to just brush guys off.

But that's not the way it is. I could have a man right now if I wanted to but I don't want to settle. I am going out this friday with someone who may be interested in me. I am meeting tonight with someone who already showed an interest in me and he is a great guy...I just am not into him physically. How sucky.

Suck, Suck, Suck. Guys are all around and the last kiss I had was a meaningless one. I am tired of having meaningless kisses!!! I want something else other than infatuation or lust!!Everyone keeps telling me I am so young. Yeah I am and I want to have fun and be free and be a woman and have a good man I can be wild, crazy, lazy, rugged, busy, sad, mad, and all that with. I need a dancin man....someone who can get down to any type of music, especially salsa!! I am not down for someone who isn't coordinated. It's not like I am the queen of coordination but someone who can get down with me and show me some new moves and stuff....take control and stuff. Oh yeah.

So anyways. that's what's going on in my head today.

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