I feel pretty crappy right now. I get like this from time to time.

I honestly am not looking that forward to this date thing tonight. I'd rather go hang out with my other friend. He's just....comfortable to be around. and although he may like me he isn't wanting things from me so fast it seems. I was reading last night and the thing that jumped out at me the most was ....timing....and patience. So with one guy I have known him for over a year now. But even so...nothing has been forced or wanted too prematurely....I rather like where it's at. So hm. I am scared. Of what though??? People get scared of outcomes they think up in their minds rather than what could and is happening in reality. I do that. We all do...it's human nature and a natural reaction to uncertainity. I think especially so in the relationship area. I do not want some guy having no control over me that I don't want him to have. I also want to respect the guy and the choices he makes aside from me and how he is with other people and his family..etc. See...I am probably taking all of this too far than reality will prohibit anyways. So much for whatever. Somethings suck. But I love to perform and dance!! It's awesome.

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