2004-11-03 and it was 7:58 p.m. when I wrote this:
I loved it. I loved every minute of it. What drives me crazy is that I feel so strongly inside.
Being with someone else...seeing them in all types of different situations and being comfortable in silence. That's what I treasure.
OH man I just treasure this guy. He can make me laugh and make me smile. He doesn't even know how much he means to me. do I tell him??
Between us....how is it between us?? I ....well....he's awesome.
It's a yearning inside to serve someone else. To be there and to love someone else...that's what I want to do. At this point...I am still young yet forming such a desire to serve...a desire that changes with wisdom as I am getting older.
Love. what's it like between two people who truly respect and want the best for one another and want to please eachother and are so physically attracted to eachother as well??? geez. overwhelming.
Keep hope alive. Don't dwell on it but expect it.
The best smells..the feeling of home and familiarity and comfort. It's awesome. I love the smell of pinenuts cooking. I had some ndn tea this morning. It was so good. Oh man. And it's awesome that my friend made me some. I loved it. I miss being on the rez and the ability to just relax because at certain moments the people you want to be with are with you and there isnt anything you are desiring at that moment because what you are experiencing is what you have been desiring. At the last moment He drove up. I was starting to think negative and give up but our minds are just rugged. So next week i was asked to do some workshops at a conference in Fallon. There sure are a lot of conferences going on. Tons of conferences...but hopefully this info at these conferences are being enforced in the communities on a reality basis instead of just ear candy. Talk is very cheap. What we do is way more clearer and louder than our words.
