2004-08-17 and it was 10:36 p.m. when I wrote this:
Where'e my place these days?
A graduate with a degree. I sit here at home still. I get calls in the night so I have gotten used to bein up weird hours.
An in between period. One that is guided by faith and believing and patience. It's a regular blah day with regular stuff that people do everyday. Yet through it the power to believe all the way through it in my mind will lead to what will happen in the future. What are we looking forward to? what do we believe will happen? Are our hearts open to something bigger happening than what we are imagining?
Pow wow this weekend. Dancing. Dancing.
I love dancing. Always looking for a dancer partner...."where do I send my application?"...ha ha. Good one. Sometimes people say the darndest things. "I'm like a...cool guy." , "I can film myself all night man."
A model. I wouldn't mind bein a model. When I was younger I wasn't as attractive as I am now. That's a good thing though. I wonder if I will get a call. The lady stopped me in the mall and said I had a good look. Hm.
There is this comedian on this show that is so great. He's so funny.
Love. We are looking for it all the time. Who wants to give it away? There are people who are always looking for ways to give it away.
It's always good to hear people are doing good and striving to be what they were created to be. Especially when you know where they are coming from or what they are coming from. Some of us start out life bad and some of us walk into things that end up making life bad when we never thought it could happen to us.
But their is faith in believing that God will get you out of whatever it is and give you life. All my life I look for that life. I've gotten lost a few times and made some unwise decisions but who doesn't. That's right.
These emotions can be controlled and yielded to something higher than me. I ask for it and then it happens as I believe I am yielding it to.
