From behind the scenes I asked for it without knowing how it was to come about. It's like that with prayers of faith and trusting that God will prepare you and straighten out your heart to deliver you from something at the time you are seriously ready to be delivered from it and never turn back. Like the Isrealites always wanting to go back to Egypt....Hm...guess they were'nt really ready to be completely rescued.

Don't look back. Just like when Sodom and Gomorrah got destroyed and that one guy's wife was told not to look back but she did and she turned into a pillar of salt. Somethings take some time for us to see, to see the need to be delivered out of our pit we fell into that is keeping us from blessings and hindering our relationship with our Creator.

I'm hurt...but it's only for a time. I must reap the consequences...if that's spelled right.

We want what we want so we justify and convince ourselves we want it when ultimately we know it's our flesh instead of our spirit. Discipline is what we need and want but seems so hard to attain....so that's why we need to pray and out heart will be changed as long as we are continuing our relationship with God and not rebelling.

Well Alaska will be in a few days from now....about ten or something. And then I pray I be able to go to Israel. I need the cash so bad. I will try to raise some. So far I have 45.00....have to start somewhere right? right. Well anyways. I have some work to do on my old regalia.

bye

OH yeah...the lake was great. We are very tied to the land. I go to that lake and I know that that's where I am registered as a member....but it's more than that...it's home. It's where my ancestors of old used to go. I find I have an opinion about people on the beach just enjoying it for the leisure instead of knowing any paiutes or caring about the native culture. In time they will see I guess.

Well see ya at the pow wow...ya'll should go. It's in Fallon.

Before - next

~~All things are permissable but not all things are beneficial~~