Yesterday I spent part of the day with my bro. He was telling me about being in Iraq. It's hardcore over there. His base got attacked and the violence is getting more intense.

He told me how he was getting shot at and how he has fired back and punched some hodgie or however you spell what they call them peoples over there. He was telling me about the kids always goin up to them and rubbing their stomachs because they are hungry. One girl got hit by a convoy trying to get the MRE they threw her.

People over there are so different. Persistent and hardcore. They have guts...major guts on the inside of them. Not like many of the americans here.

He was also telling me how the Israel troops went to Baghdad and just killed a bunch of people. I am not too sure about the nature of that visit but the Israeli army, which is the army that I have seen, are real hardcore as well.

I pray my bro get a good life....and he will be a man of honor. I hope he comes home but only the Lord knows what is going to happen.

Our papa is gone and he received an american flag and a hat from the veterans association..some native american veteran's association. But my bro will be a vet when he gets back that's for sure.

I talked with Joey this morning. He sounded in good spirits. But I just have to keep lookin to God in everything. Somethings we can't handle on our own and we try to hard by ourselves.

I started to clean out my room last night. I was watching a show about people who are trying their hardest yet still can't put food on the table for the youngsters they are taking care of. I would like to help in some way. I was looking around my room at all the things that I own. I want to leave here...I want to go somewhere and do something...be active in sharing what I know to whoever needs it or being able to give to other people.

I have been sensing within me to give away my best!! The Lord our Creator honors us and blesses us when we give our best because he gave his best...his son Yeshua. So many in this country call him Jesus ... but say that to the Israeli's and it means nothing....Yeshua is His name...but we reconize Jesus as the name...that in itself is interesting.

The apostle Paul went from town to town talking with whomever would listen to him and he got thrown in jail and all that stuff. He really knew this Christ. What is life all about? Why are we all here?

A steady job so our kids and family and ourselves can have a future?...that's a good thing but not the best thing. Is there anything that comes before that or should come before that? What is this journey that I am on.

I remember reading something about we are responsible for what we read. Because what we read then turns into what we know and then that really turns into a heartfelt know.

I am almost done with Reese Howells "intercessor" and for so much of that guys life he prayed and then God answered. In finances so much so as well. It's foolish to someone to go on a trip with no money let alone start a project without the money upfront but what if the Creator have been speaking to this person and says to do it and then he will work. The faith that starts it off and continues to know his God and creator...that's faith and the relationship just gets stronger no matter how foolish we look to people. But we need to entrust it to our God...cry out to Yeshua our savior for he was the gift to connect us and he cares for us and shares in all of our hurts and upsets for he was murdered for us.

There's a lot on my mind. And entrusting it to the most high and walking in love to everyone I meet is a challenge. But in our weaknesses he is strong and that is what sustains me...not a strength or comfort of my own. Nothing man made.

A call on my life. There's a call on my life. Tests, tests, tests. Some people do'nt ask to be a man or woman of character...but there are those that do. And God's eyes roam the earth looking for those through which he can make himself known. The perseverence James said...it produces patience and perfect faith. Trials and temptations...who will hold on to the savior through all of that? Or who will be bitter and not humble....a proud heart is a bad thing to have...confidence that we can fix everything is bad....it leaves room for us to accomplish but not God our Creator.

Just like the pharisees..relying on their routines and all types of actions to save them. All kinds of doctrines. But none of these mean anything if we do'nt have love and act in love or walk in love. Our motivations are important.

None of us has a perfect hear uncapable of hurting someone else. We do not. But we can try too hard to be connected to God...when we should just let him have us.

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~~All things are permissable but not all things are beneficial~~