My grandma has been passed on for almost a week...5 days right now. He isn't coming back. he was like a backbone to our family.

Joey is going to be leaving soon, I may not pass my cultural geography class at all...which means...I may not graduate.

All in all I haven't had a day like this where I haven't been able to smile. For the past two years I have been able to smile and joke around still. What types of tests did it this time?...big ones.

There is happiness though...it's still waiting there. My circumstances aren't the best but who's really is? We all have to deal with death. We have decisions to make everyday. Those decisions can make us better or worse. We can follow Jesus or Satan. Either one...if you think because you haven't said that you are following satan or jesus...you are fooled by satan. he's a deceiver...you bought into the lie that you don't have to choose when in fact doing that means you choose darkness. Anything and everything that is good comes from God...so if you choose good..you choose God...but with that comes Jesus because he connects us to God by what he did here on this earth.

Everything under the sun is futile...what are you really living your live for?

In order to make changes we need to be people of change ourselves...if we can't take that stance or step out then we have no business telling other people to when we ourselves won't even do it.

do as i Say not as I do...that's jacked up.

Love...love...love. tricky in how it works and was designed. God bless what and how he created it...no other way. I see that...but what is my problem?

I guess the issue is not so much a problem as it is a mindset that I am unwilling to let go of or have been taught.

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~~All things are permissable but not all things are beneficial~~