Today I missed the meeting. I missed the meeting because of a boy.

He came to the city to spend the day with me.

I just got back into town and my work isn't done but thank goodness that I started some of it last night!!

Still I have a lot to do in the morning.

"If we play with fire we are going to get burned"

I just read that this evening and it has sunk in. It's a good thing to. There are lies we buy into that are very destructive and only later will we reap the consequences and sometimes not till judgement time. Oh Lord Jesus help me to help myself. Cause things in my life that help me instead of obligate me or make me feel like i have to jump through hoops for other people and do things their way to be shadows of them. But then again if they are being christlike that shouldn't be a problem.

I have gotten in way deep this time.

A letter came the other day at a most interesting time. I still haven't responded to it. Do I want to respond to it? yes I do.

And yes.

Yet I have done some things in this time that are just horrid. I really don't like that word but I think that is the word to describe some of my actions.

Lord help me.

NAO..I am sorry for missing the meeting. Sorry my buddies. I feel lame.

Today is the first time something like something to this effect has happened to me.

I need to get to bed.

g-night

Before - next

~~All things are permissable but not all things are beneficial~~